So I finally got back to work today and it was interesting. It seems I was right on the money thinking my supervisor didn't believe me until she saw my ankle in a brace and me hobbling about on crutches (which sucks ass by the way). Also she put me in a back room with a coworker so I had space and someone to help me if I needed it. But cause I couldn't actually put my foot up aka put my foot up on a pc tower so I didn't get proper support so now my leg and my ankle hurts from being propped up all strange like.

I just want this bloody thing to be gone or at least almost all healed by the time Wrestlemania comes up. I would hate to be trying to hobble to my seat with crutches since I have to use them until I can walk without a limp. I can't even put barely any weight on it. If I don't have it up right for a while it starts aching especially when I take the brave off. But I have to take the brace off cause it makes my leg all gross and sweaty... this is balls.

I apologize to everyone as well of late for the past couple months of me being not so available and kinda being a douche in the whole not talking and all that jazz department.

Work's been dicking around my schedule so I've been flip-flopping hours. Thankfully I have a more secure schedule starting next week. I'll be working 12pm-8pm which will secure me getting my 40 hours a week again. I cannot wait. I just want a fucking good paycheck and a stable work schedule so I stop feeling like I am going to kill someone from the stress.

Also how am I gonna spend my money on Deadpool goodies and j-rock if I have none.

Feel free to poke me on messengers and all that. I should be more receptive now that I have my days off back and I don't want to shot people in the face all the time.

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News
TV's Craziest Fan Bases... With Video Proof posted by x5vale
100th episode casting spoilers posted by pink_thunder17 [SPOILERS]
Spoiler-free news roundup at spnfencentral
Interview with Alex Ferris (the first young Sam Winchester) posted by agt_spooky
5x21 title and 5x22 spoilers posted by soonafter [SPOILERS]

Challenges
Challenge #17 reminder at mishastills

Fanfic: Sam/Dean
Big Girls Do Cry, or The Time Sam Winchester Bitched Slapped His Brother, Several Times by lylithj2 (NC-17)
remember how you used to say (I'd be the one to run away) by dime_for_12 (NC-17)
Solid State by kirschvanille (PG)
What doesn't kill you 9/? by smash86 (NC-17)

Fanfic: Other Slash
Doghouse Roses by janie_tangerine (Dean/Castiel, PG-13)
Tell Me That You'll (Open Your Eyes) by tuesdayfic (Dean/Castiel, NC-17)
you, in parts by batang_paslit (Dean/Castiel, PG-13)
I'd come for you by insatiablegrit (Sam/Gabriel, R)
Beer Good by lisztful (Dean/Castiel, PG-13)
Brotherly Bonding by kijikun (Dean/Castiel, Sam/Gabriel; PG)
Why the World Will End by xarixian (Dean/Castiel, PG)
The Free Fall 3/9 by oso_intricate (Dean/Castiel, PG-13)
Quiet, Please by mithrel (Sam/Gabriel, NC-17)
At the End of the World by mithrel (Lucifer/Michael, PG-13)
The Devil's Tail 4/? by shilohx (Dean/Michael, Sam/Castiel, Lucifer/Michael; NC-17)
Fruit Salad by jenab (Sam/Gabriel, R)
By the Grace of God by morganoconner (Dean/Castiel, PG)
Peep Show by morganoconner (Sam/Gabriel, PG)
Watching by morganoconner (Sam/Gabriel, PG)
Teamwork by morganoconner (Sam/Gabriel, PG-13)

Fanfic: Gen
Is Anybody There by hansons_angel (R)
Cause I Know You're Mad 1/3 by 27_jaredjensen (PG-13)
Walls by ultraviolet9a (PG-13)
Ashes by thruterryseyes (PG-13)
Have It Your Way by caffienekitty (PG)
Of Electric Sheep by ficwriter1966 (PG)
The End is Near by dante_s_hell (PG-13)
I've Got You Under My Skin 6/12 by livilend (R)

Fanfic: Het
Back Onto Black by vodou_blue (Dean/Carmen, NC-17)
Belief by shanaqui (Sam/Jess, R)
Progeny by jenab (girl!Sam/Gabriel, PG)

Fanfic: Other
Peace When You Are Done by chaos_erevos (Dean/John, John/Mary; R)
Touched by an Angel 26-28/? by nilitara (Harry Potter crossover, Castiel/Harry, PG)
You found me 4/? by the_fmly_bzns (Queer As Folk crossover, Sam/Justin, PG-13)

Fanfic: RPF
Unexpected Cue by cha and anyothergirl415 (Jared/Jensen, NC-17)
this round's on the house by __tiana__ (Jared/Jensen, NC-17)
The Net Above Which He Performs 2/7 by ghostwrit (Misha/Johnny Depp, NC-17)
Welcome Home by vamphile (Jared/Jensen, NC-17)
Life, Interrupted 2/? by sarcasticdaisy (Jared/Jensen, Jensen/Danneel; adult)
Chasing Rainbows 13/? by blynnk (Jared/Jensen, Jared/Jensen/Tom; NC-17)
just the lucky kind. by sparkbyspark (Jared/Jensen, PG-13)
Spoiled Brat, Richbitch Diva 2/? by sammyndeansgrl1 (Jared/Jensen, NC-17)
The Ides of March 18/? by krebsbach (Jared/Jensen, NC-17)

Recs
Dean/Castiel porn fic recs at rec_hymenated
Sam/Dean fic rec at crack_impala
Vid rec by tiggeratl1
Jared/Jensen fic rec by wendy
Gen vid rec by maychorian
Sam/Dean and Jared/Jensen porn fic recs by velvetine01 at sawedoff_recs
Dean/Castiel and Sam/Gabriel fic recs at crack_impala

Screencaps/Pictures
Logo-free caps of Criss Angel Is A Douchebag and After School Special by anastdean

Fanart
Dean and Castiel in the city by vixengeraldine (Dean/Castiel)
Dean pencil sketch by wincestuouslove
Candy Cas (WIP) by amerikangothic
Abandon All Hope... comic by fox4859
Castiel by ravengrimm

Songvids
Holding On by dreamtofall (Sam/Dean)

Multimedia
Fanmix: Be My Escape by kodamasama (Dean/Castiel)

Meta
Be My Valentine? (thoughts on My Bloody Valentine) by missyjack

Miscellaneous
Favorite S1-4 episodes poll by sammyknuddel
S5 titles & filming dates updated by raloria [SPOILERS]
Competion reminders and request for updates on fic-related Super-Wiki pages by missyjack

I wanted to have kids since I was.. I think I was around 18 years old. I have seen how people treated their children, I had seen how miserable or happy a child could become. It's stunning how much a child learns/takes into his own life from his parents. Their learning curve and their cognative behaviour is astounding;They could ask me a million questions and i'd answer them all honestly every single time again and again. Seeing a child learn just gives me enormous joy.
That's when I decided I want kids, to be the best dad they could ever wish for. That's whats driving me forward and one of my biggest goals in my life.

If I was in a relationship, we would ofcourse decide together, but I'm hoping she would want kids too..